Frustration Kicks In

Ug.  Mother says she doesn't restrict me at what I read, but refuses to let me get books on Wicca.  Some characters in my books are Wiccans, so I feel I should educate myself in the religion.  So that I can get a better feel of it.  But she refuses to let me.  I do not like living in a world of ignorance, and I like to learn what interests me.  If I do not understand something, I get a book.  (I read a lot of books)   If I like something, I get a book on it.  If I hit a block, it nags at me.  Eating at me, until I HAVE to do it.  So this is not a good thing, and I fear that soon I mght implode.